taykexin: February 2013

so i tell myself, age is just a number.

yeap, a number that hopefully doesn't ever change from this moment on
please thank you very much!!!

Truth is i never thought much about my youth,
because i constantly live in a timeframe that is 5 years older than my actual age.
I had been mingling around with older people ever since i was 19 because of singing,
and since then i had this illusion that i'm always younger than people around me.

This illusion was shattered last week on my birthday,
and in fact it was shattered long ago when people start to ask me and my sister - who's older.
It's heartbreaking given that we are a further apart in age than we seem to be.

So i started to have a lot of thoughts about changing my life,
how i can be a better person,
how i can step up as a singer/songwriter/performer,
and i ended up feeling worse than ever because i felt like
i'm drowning in a quicksand of time; the more i struggle, the faster i sink.

So perhaps the best way out of it,
is not to avoid it,
but accept it as it comes,
go with the flow.
SINK WITH IT.

I firmly believe sinking can be enjoyable though,
maybe the peaks of my life will come at a later age
(this hope is ignited when i realized that carly rae jepson is freaking 27 years old!! *shocked i thought she's 19 or something).

Well, i sunk happily during my birthday that's for sure!

The weekend before i had a showcase

with the team from Sparkle Live Music at the Esplanade Waterfront (:

Intensive rehearsals with Ein on keys, Fatt on guitar/footdrums,

& fellow singers Leon & Alfred!